The Reality of the Spiritual Ego

In 1999 we received a very detailed explanation from the Celestials about the Divine Plan of the Ascension from the 1950s through August 17, 1987 and up to the grand possibility of December 21, 2012. It was a very precise plan and vision to help all Lightworkers reach the gate of Ascension through awakening and evolution year by year. But in 2007, to our deep sorrow, the Celestials revealed that it seemed from the Higher Planes that we would not be able to form the critical mass of 144,000 people holding the Christ Consciousness all together as One Heart. So there came the grand event of the Global Correction of Fate that gave us more time to evolve and come together. After this we received the Divine Plan year by year from 2007 till 2021. (See

https://stellarnations.wordpress.com/2017/04/12/the-divine-plan-of-the-years/ )

So now looking into the future and hoping for the next gate to come in 2021 and 2030 we feel that we must analyze very deeply and sincerely why the community of Light Emissaries all over the world had failed in coming together in the One Heart. What were the mistakes we committed or just let happen?

What we see clearly is that we could not unite with each other! There were so many spiritual communities all over the world thinking that it was they that held the best key for the Ascension; the greatest wisdom, the most brilliant light, the best healing tools etc… Exclusion, rivalry, envy, jealousy and rejection were all responsible for keeping spiritual groups from uniting. This was our main tragedy. We were not genuine enough while holding hands, not true enough in respecting each other’s work.

Thus this is what we must correct in the whole community of Emissaries of Light. True Light Emissaries must prove and be moving towards Christ Consciousness to make the One Heart real. To do this, we must unite this time! We must love one another, respect each other’s work, ideas, beliefs about our spiritual approach and know that no one has the best and one and only key! We only have “The Key” together! And we must realize it together!

To help us come together, it is very important to be aware of the existence of the Spiritual Ego. This is a state of being that needs to be understood as real, consequential and seriously damaging. To successfully unite, we need to be able to recognize this great temptation and test when it comes into our lives, either in our own beings or in others.

Since the spheres of the soul reside mainly in the invisible, they can only be approached with such fine instruments as “clairsentience”, “clairaudience”, “clairvoyance” and intuition, and this sets up the inherent temptation for people, especially healers, to position themselves above others. When someone has the feeling that they can see everything, they can understand everything, or that they know the answers and they have the power to heal others – that is a very dangerous situation.

Seeing has to be handled very carefully, because seeing alone is very little. Spiritual seekers often complain, “I cannot see! I don’t have any visions during meditation”, etc. With the experience of many years, we can say that it is not by chance that the ability to see is not what Heavenly Wisdom opens up at first. Because ideally, one should learn to see first through their heart. If the “clairsentient” ability of the heart chakra is mature enough to be able to feel real unconditional love, acceptance and forgiveness at the finest possible levels, with genuine humility, then one is ready and worthy to proceed with further training.

That is when the ability of the throat chakra’s “clairaudience” can develop. Through that, the Masters of the higher realms awaken very certain and definite thoughts on the receiving screen of our mind. But for this, it is necessary and very important to be ready for this impeccably honest, correct and undistorted communication. And then at last, the ability of “clairvoyance” can awaken, which belongs to the third-eye chakra. Such inner pictures and visions can be revealed through it, which are the projections of the emotional, mental, or karmic patterns encoded in the auras of others or in our own aura.

However, a very serious spiritual maturity is needed to interpret all these as a complex unit and to be able to help with these combined ways of knowing. These levels and inner senses are completely connected; they are built on one another. Seeing alone has driven many people into psychiatric treatment because it was not in harmony with the maturity and emotional processing skills of the other senses. We should have deep trust and offer our training into the hands of the Heavenly Masters, forging a spiritual alliance with them. They know exactly how much we can take and which is the wisest way for us to proceed. We should only want to know and learn as much as our hearts can bear!

To gain a solid grounding and commitment for respecting the balanced use of true intuition, it is useful to have an understanding of the notion of the “spiritual ego”. According to the teachings of the Heavenly Masters, it often happens that from our spiritual experiences–from all the knowledge we have acquired and integrated and from all the information we have read – from all these energy patterns–an entity can be formed within us.

It is as if all these factors coming together create a “master-being-like” illusion field in our aura. Beyond a certain point, this field acquires a level of individual consciousness; it can send us messages and communicate with us. S/he is only an apparent entity however, which operates as a part of our aura. It connects to our higher chakras, but it is nurtured with vitality, trust and certainty by the solar chakra. This entity is the energy field formed of our experiences, the thought patterns of our mental-body, the memories of our present and past lives. It is not our Higher self, and not a real, higher dimensional Master being, either. That is why this being is so dangerous!

Through clairvoyance, the placement of this entity in the aura can often be very accurately described along with its size, color and exact connections. The question may arise, “Does each spiritual seeker create this spiritual ego?” The answer is no. But it is almost certain that everyone has to go through the test of this temptation. The healing, visionary, or psychic role can only be kept in the Light with infinite humility, extremely clear and honest inner communication and great discipline. One always has to be prepared for confrontation, for the situations when life holds up a mirror to us, even in subtle and hidden ways. It is important that we expose our own falsities and distortions. We need to set a high inner standard, always expecting from ourselves, and asking the Master Beings to help us; to stay vigilant with the intent to catch and correct ourselves if we start to go off course.

We can never feel like we are Masters. Because life is continuous learning and development we can always be ever clearer and more true. We are students on our way, who might have begun to remember a little earlier the things everyone else knows somewhere in their soul as well. Thus it has become our mission and responsibility to help our sisters and brothers in the process of awakening.

The abilities we carry must be kept in their pure simplicity, in the light of the spirit, because indeed, knowledge is power. So many have abused it in so many ways over so many ages and this trial is not any easier today. The people who feed and fatten their spiritual egos into a big round entity, are often the ones who have had to struggle with a hidden sense of defeatism in the past or in this lifetime. They often find it difficult to feel like they belong to their community and perhaps did not receive support or confirmation as children or as young adults.

So, when the magical new world of esoteric knowledge opens to them, it can offer the sense of having found a long-desired place and new explanations for their former bereft experiences. This whiff of new possibility can offer an exciting sense of redemption as they feel that they can finally be lifted into a new role. They can finally feel that they have become more and better and their awakening inner senses can suddenly turn their defeatism into a glorious self-confidence.

This is a very vulnerable juncture in the process of healing which is usually followed by a critical period; the time of being tried. This is when their long-time buried, but elementary yearning, to finally become “someone” — an important and special person—emerges and is prey to inflating into an ungrounded and untrue entity. Their latent desire to prove self-worth can drive them to grow above others to make everyone see what a wonderful, strong and smart teacher and “master” they have become.

On the other hand, if at this juncture, their heart develops together with them, they will have enough humility to establish a healthy and necessary self-confidence and will not need to seek “glory and fame”.

In the school of Life, every student has to get to know and heal and above all, love themselves first before performing any service as healers, teachers, or leaders because then they will not need such compensation mechanisms. When someone loses his or her balance and fails in this test, then we can often see a shiny and rising career unravel. Soon there will be falsities, hidden games of power emerging as well as judgment, suggestive power, and manipulation of others to encourage dependency. Often these temptations can be seen confronting the leaders of religious sects, too.

Those who only develop and consult with their spiritual ego, which is the entity they have created in their own aura as their consulting Master, are actually only working with information they have acquired before, and they are strongly dominated by their prejudices, assumptions, feelings and their own self-image. Over time, they increasingly receive messages—which adds to their feeling of confidence and superiority. In fact, all they seem to do is receive messages, in an almost possessed, often solitary state, as if in a spiritual trance.

Sadly, these messages are also increasingly inaccurate. Unfortunately, these revelations only come from a very low vibrational part of themselves. They begin to lose their sense of reality; they fall away from the everyday tasks of their life. They believe they are free, and thinking they are communicating with the highest angelic spheres, they believe that they have risen above the other “obscure” people. They often leave their community because they feel they have grown beyond their earthly teachers, who cannot say anything new to them because they feel that their clairvoyant abilities have surpassed all the others. They lose their points of reference, the mirror of external control. They wander in their own colorful misconceptions. They become locked inside the prison of their own world.

This is a very sad and very difficult state to deal with, because they no longer accept advice from their former mates or teachers. They believe they are above them because they feel that their spiritual channels are more authentic. At this point, there is no choice but to become lost in the labyrinth of illusion for some time. Unfortunately, whether they realize it or not, their inevitable fall will come with the illusion of rising, because their spiritual ego blocks true redemption. Sacrificing many months or years, or even a full lifetime in this labyrinth of illusion, they will have to learn the lesson that the healing priestesses of Taygeta from the Pleiadian star cluster had once completed. At the bottom of the fall, they have to let go of the false master image and learn real humility.

This was also the spiritual message of the Full Moon in Aries in October 2003, which we presented many times to our groups later on, because it contains an extremely important test and recognition. During that Moon meditation night, we attuned together to discern whether we had created such an entity in ourselves. We experienced that through the intent born from our soul, we let go of this illusion field so that the energy of a Spiritual Ego would have no place to take root lest we were to be tempted. Through our hearts we pledged that we would only follow the guidance of our Higher Self and the Light-messengers of the real spiritual groups who accompany us.

If we happen to be working with such a spiritual ego that allures us with different feelings, such as the illusion of righteousness or the feeling of knowing it all, but we recognize this latent process within ourselves with the necessary self-criticism, and undertake to sacrifice these nice feelings, we can ask our Spiritual Guides to deconstruct this energy field from us! Our previously released meditation CD, called the “Key to Recovery” can be helpful with this, too. (It is only available in Hungarian, but can work on a soul level).

This way we can sustain our abilities as true spiritual qualities, with real seeing and capacity, the center of which will be the heart-chakra, not the solar chakra. We should never forget that we have only received the aptitude for healing, seeing and intuition as instruments for fulfilling our undertaken service and holding these does not mean that we are different, better or more valuable than others!

Related to all these thoughts, we would also like to share that in 2005, at the opening of the year of re-tuning the spiritual-body, we received a very interesting teaching from the Pleiadian Masters, especially from the priestesses of Taygeta. They told us that in the stellar language, there is an expression for the pathway of the soul’s descent; its going astray, the falling on the spiritual path, when one is deceived by illusions.

This is a process that has three stages. The first step of this is called the “óman hara” state. This means “Being under the influence of the shadow”. In this stage there is a shadow projecting into the person’s mind and s/he is touched by temptation as it clings onto his or her soul and deludes them. S/he begins to react to it, thereby letting it closer and closer and letting it plant more and more ideas inside. Temptation is like a glittery ribbon of shadow, which adorns the personality. In some way the tempting illusions make the person feel that they are special or better. The illusion of being chosen or other ideas that nourish the ego gives the person the feeling that they hold a place above others.

This is followed by the second stage, which is called the “katan hóla” state in the stellar language, which means the “lost” or “submerged” soul. Unfortunately, it is not really possible to affect one at this stage because they have entered into a spiritual vortex. At this point it is impossible to come out until the very last descent into full immersion. Just as it is impossible to escape from the turbulent flow of a river by flailing, one has to let himself be completely immersed and the chance to escape only arrives at the bottom-most point of the whirl.

The real spiritual presence, the accompanying Guardian Angel, also steps back from the process at this point. S/He cannot interfere in the process but has to wait for its completion. S/He can only send some awakening impulses to the person, to try to help them return. During this stage, people create a complex reality around themselves, constructed from the tempting haze of illusion and they build their lives mainly upon their own complex belief system. They often have messianic ideas, they feel special and chosen and think more and more in the terms of hierarchy and spiritual castes. Many different self-delusions are at work in this phase; the illusion of righteousness and humility, the idea of being the secret ally and the purest channel of the Heavenly powers, etc.

The spiritual ego, the entity field born in their auras, just keeps on growing and expanding.

Moreover, each new experience and vision keeps on enhancing the sense of being chosen and this creates an addiction similar to the addiction to drugs. In this phase, people seek and chase the experience of this “spiritually different” state and they find it harder and harder to confront the expectations and responsibilities of everyday life. Thus the gap between their inner world and the outside continues to grow. They withdraw into the realm that shows the least resistance towards their inner misconceptions and neglect their roles in the spheres of their earlier life. They act like an “enlightened master”, who can simply afford to delegate his or her jobs to others, while they preach the word of redemption in a state of majestic spiritual arrogance.

People in the katan hóla state often feel that they are special healers or teachers. They usually try to gather a group around themselves which they can strongly manipulate with their misbeliefs. So even though they withdraw from life in one way, these people do not isolate themselves, they actually have a specific need to outflow and share what they believe to be “Heavenly revelations”. But unfortunately these beliefs are only woven from the illusion matrix of their spiritual ego. Most sect leaders are in this state.

It is very sad to see all this from above, especially knowing that one cannot really help, because the perpetrator does not recognize any of this. In fact, they react with total rejection, denial and resentment to any attempt to suggest a course correction. We should probably think about this by acknowledging that this experience is included along the spiritual pathway of all of us. There is probably no one among us who has never experienced this before. And after the awakening, an eternal memento burns in our mind, like a deep warning that we should never again step onto this false path.

The third grade on the pathway of descent is the “khadarr setam” state. In earthly words this means “the prisoner of illusions”, “the prisoner” or the “one who lives in captivity”. The Celestials told us that, based on their experience, people who reach this phase do not usually return to the pathway of their original life-plan in this lifetime. They have driven themselves so far away from their chosen and designated life-path that there is no way to return to it in the given incarnation. They fall several levels down their life-spiral, so the abyss between their present state and the original path will be so deep that they can only climb up again in a future embodiment. These people, bound in the captivity of illusions and in their misconception of the truth, are beguiled by the feeling of freedom, of soaring. With this false flight they are carried to the border of madness, deep psychosis – without their noticing or ever admitting this, of course. They walk amidst the common people with serious self-deceit, and messianic beliefs, wearing the robe of the world’s secret redeemer.

In more severe cases, they can fall very deeply into the captivity of astral energies. They hear voices all the time and sense the presence of certain entities, which convey a kind of obscenity, or continuous pathetic and sometimes cynical confirmation of their role as the “chosen one” while voicing degradation and judgment about other people. At this point, a gradual isolation usually begins, because the person believes that s/he has surpassed the level of humanity’s consciousness, reaching such a high degree of awareness and knowledge that no one would understand him or her anyway. Therefore, s/he would rather stay silent, bearing a removed and secretive attitude.

This was the actual path, the exact choreography of Lucifer’s descent, too.

The soul who gets swept into the vortex of falling attracts the shadow pole. S/he integrates this polarity without even being aware of it, although at this level it is even possible that the person actually finds the satanic power attractive. Because even God is not glorious enough compared to his or her alleged inner light and knowledge. Thus s/he considers that s/he has risen even above the Source; in fact, s/he could be a new Source, a God-king or Satan-king in the sky of the Universe. Many souls have been through this frightening spiritual darkness. It is only possible to awaken from this and break free from the influence of the illusions after a very long rehabilitation and serious healing work done in the transient state – which is usually supervised by the priestesses of Taygeta from the Pleiades working in the union of a spiritual community. Then through the gate of a very painful confrontation, the soul is finally able to step out into the Light again.

We have always said that we have not been born to win the game of life for our ego but for our soul. So let’s release the ego, or let it suffer and die… Don’t cry for the ego’s pain–knowing that the true light of the Soul is locked behind these games waiting and wishing to be set free!

Love,

Dr. Beatrix Czeizel and Anikó Greskó

This article contains excerpts from our book Stellar Destinies soon to be published in English.

Artwork by Bruce Rolff, many thanks to him!